What I miss most

“we’ve received the results of your blood tests it seems your thyroid is underactive…but it’s ok it’s just 1 small tablet a day and it will all be fine”

That was 9years ago. I’m now on 7tablets a day just to get by, I’m in pain constantly, I’m always ill, my social life is practically zero,my skin suffers,my hair suffers,my weight suffers, I’m just so fed up. Yet I’ve learnt to deal with this, these things are fine they are manageable (ish) I don’t even really miss the ‘old’ me I’ve learnt to adapt to this new exhausted version of myself. No the thing I really truly miss……..sleep.

With thryoid issues sleep isn’t great throw in some chronic fatigue you’ve gained along the way and well I consider 6 hours a lay in. I miss refreshing sleep, that sleep where you’ve been so comfy and cosy and sound asleep and you wake up feeling like a princess your hairs glowing your eye bags are gone you can take on the world. I’ve had 4 hours sleep again tonight I’ve been awake since 5:20am and I’m currently downstairs rambling on to you guys, my cats asleep next to me on the sofa (lucky thing) I can hear my husband snoring upstairs sound asleep (lucky thing) and once again I’m forced to watch crappy early morning TV and wait for my alarm to taunt me reminding me I’m already awake and I need to put a smile on my face take my pills and go to work. *Sigh*

I feel like this isn’t even anything to moan about either I mean boohoo I have a nice warm bed to lay in, a job, understanding friends and family, I should just suck it up and get on with it right?

Anyways Happy Monday!! Xx

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400 followers!!!

Hello loves so I just came into wordpress and I now have 400followers!!! WHAT!! THATS SO CRAZY I just want to say thank you so much to everyone who follows me and supports me I feel honoured!! So to celebrate this occasion I found some really fun questions to answer so my new followers get to know more about me and my old faithfuls get to know me a little better too 🙂 so here goes

1. If you didn’t have to sleep what would you do with the extra time? I would socialise more I’d see friends and family and I’d have time to watch my Netflix watchlist that seems to be forever growing!

2. What would your perfect room look like? Bookshelves filled with books, pop vinyls,dvds and all the Lego sets I want. Big soft sofas and arm chairs an open fire and a huge TV!!

3 What fictional place would you most like to go? It’s a tie…Hogwarts obviously!! And the shire I think I’d suit hobbit life.

4 What job would you be terrible at? Anything to do with computers I’m rubbish with technology! Or cold calling I hate bothering people and I hate talking on the phone lol!

5 When was the last time you climbed a tree? Years ago 😦 I used to visit this place called hills and holes near my house where there were amazing trees to climb and id climb them and sit in them for hours chatting with my friend!!

6 Favourite piece of clothing you’ve owned/own? My wedding dress. Nothing will beat it to the top spot!

7 If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport what would you have a chance at winning a medal for? Reading. Specifically reading a whole book in a day!!

8 What is the most annoying habit other people have? Chewing with their mouth open or chewing loudly!!!!!!

9 What job would you be really good at? Actress or wardrobe assistant or librarian 

10 What skill would you like to master? Portrait drawing and knitting! Oh and making a meringue from scratch

11 What would be the most amazing adventure to go on? Me hubby&Molly in a campervan traveling the world.

12 What songs have you completely memorised? Any Disney song, anything from the spice girls and All Saints pure sures.

13 What game or movie universe would you most like to live in? Tolkien’s world with elves and hobbits and dwarves!!

14 Are you usually early or late? Ummmm a bit of both if it’s somewhere new I’m early if I’ve been there before usually late!

15 What pets did you have growing up? I had two guinea pigs. I’ve had fish and I’ve had hamsters 🙂

16 When people come to you for help what do they usually want help with? Advise and a sympathetic ear to listen.

17 What takes up too much of your time? My illness.

18 What are some small things that make your day better? My husband cat family and friends obviously. A good cup of tea. Putting my PJs and slippers on after a long day at work. Seeing things I’ve planted grow in my garden

19 Whose your go to band or artist when you’ve got nothing to listen to? Sterephonics Adele and Disney classics

20 What’s the best way to start the day? Caffeine! And knowing you’ve got nothing in particular to do knowing the day is yours.

21 What shows are you into? Game of thrones, bake off , apprentice, strictly come dancing, Doctor Foster and modern family

22 What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch? IT. I watched it once never again I hate clowns and any war film I hate war films. 

23 What would be your ideal weekend? Saturday walk to a farmer’s market pick up fresh supplies for brunch eat brunch in the garden go round to my families for a meal and drinks watch a good film Sunday walk to the shop get the Sunday papers meet up with friends for a walk have a Sunday roast at the local pub come home and have a lazy afternoon and evening 

24 What’s your claim to fame? I auditioned for a part in skins and was in the final 10 I met the writers of skins and met the people that subsequently got the part!!

25 What’s your favourite genre of book or movie? Book crime/thriller movie comedy

26 What have you recently formed an opinion about? Gender equality 

27 What’s the best single day on the calendar? 25th December

28 How do relax after a hard day at work? Get changed into my comfy clothes make a cuppa water the plants in the garden watch the chase eat tea and then read a book or watch YouTube videos

29 What was the best book or book series you’ve ever read? Series harry potter hands down singular book….ummm behind closed doors.

30 What’s the farthest you’ve ever been from home? Austin Texas

31 What’s the most annoying thing people always ask you? 2 questions. 1Are you ill again? 2. When are you having kids?

32 What’s your dream car? Mustang Shelby in blue 

33 What could you give a 40minute presentation on with no preparation? Aside from the obvious Harry potter&Disney films not alot!! Maybe talk about Lego dimensions!!!

34 If you were a dictator of a small island nation what crazy dictator stuff would you do? I’d do silly things like Fridays everyone has to wear odd socks or I’d ban things like cabbage and gherkins.

35 What’s worth spending more on to get the best? Shoes. I love me some primark bargains don’t get me wrong but shoes are something I definitely invest in.

36 What is something a tonne of people are obsessed with but you just don’t see the point of? Love island… Geordie shore…..orange is the new black….expensive makeup and green tea.

37 If all jobs had the same pay and hours what job would you like to do? Police officer, stunt double or actress 

38 What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years? Hopefully becoming a parent. Visiting some amazing places with my hubby and watching two of my besties get married.

39 What quirks do you have? I have to eat food in even amounts. I wear socks with sandals. I often wear my t-shirts and dresses backwards.

40 Wherewould you spend all your time if you could? The library. The park near my house and Disneyland 

That’s it for now my love’s so again thank you for your continued support I love you all and I’m excited for the next few months content I’ve got planned!! Xx

What’s in my bag updated x

Two posts in one day? I’m spoilling you I know ;p x I’ve seen alot of different what’s in my bag editions on YouTube and wordpress and thought as I was changing my handbag over why not do one myself so here you go 🙂 x

On the left is all the crap I pulled out of my summer handbag that I brought for 99p from barnardos it’s originally from next and has served me well this summer 🙂 BUT as it’s September aka start of autumn I’m going back to my faithful brown handbag that I’ve had for 2 years now I brought it in Monaco and it’s still my favourite handbag!! 

Purse is still my radley one that I was given as a Christmas present I do want to invest in a new purse but honestly I hate trying to find a decent purse! Shopping bags-yeps when they brought in the 5p carrier bag charge I thought I’d save myself money and buy some reusable bags and I do actually carry these everywhere with me which is SO handy!! The white one and the black one were £1 each the white one is primark and the black one is from b&m the pink one I got free with a superdrug purchase and the yellow one my nan gave me years ago. I then have house keys with various keyrings including a light,car keys,headphones,glasses case and my lucky charms.

Pencil case with coloured pencils pens ruler sharpener and eraser. Current read About a boy,Hogwarts notebook,wreck this journal,small notebook ideal for my meetings and training notes and my diary.

Cosmetics bag- tissues,sewing kit,face cream, mouthwash, perfume,hand sanitizer,immodium #ibslife, Ibuprofen,hair slides hair clip& bobbles,tampon&pad #irregularperiods always got to be prepared,comb,mirror,earrings,safety pins,assorted plasters,lip balm,lipstick and cotton buds.
That’s it all in my bag and ready for work tomorrow 😦 x

Recent Reads pt2 

Hello my loves I thought I’d do another recent reads post to let you guys know what I read in July&August 🙂

July. I was bad in July I read one book…but that one book was SO Good!! It wasn’t particularly long but it was quite….. difficult to read. It was The One by John Marrs an author I hadn’t heard of before but I’m definitely up for reading more of his work because I really enjoyed this one! As usual I will give my honest non spoiler reviews 🙂 so this book is about dating, new scientific research has shown that you share one specific gene with another person in the world and just you and this person have that same gene making them your apparent SOUL mate you send in your DNA and get your DNA match it follows a few couples and there is alot of drama and things that happen I feel that Marrs writes female characters really well and I always enjoy males that write female characters well the females end up being very interesting in this book!! Highly recommended 4/5 

August

 I read the 3rd installment in the Agatha Raisin collection The potted Gardner now if your a new follower or you haven’t read any of my book related posts you won’t know that I inherited the entire Agatha Raisin collection from my great auntie and I am slowly working my way through them. They are usually between 200-250 pages long so a nice quick read and I just absolutely love Agatha Raisin she is such a relatable character she was a high flyer in London now she’s retired early and moved to a little village where nothing exciting happens….until she arrives and then…people start getting murdered and old Agatha Raisin sticks her nose in and manages to solve the murders!! These are nice little Sunday afternoon reads something easily read in one sitting and I really love getting to know this adorable character more. 4/5

A study in scarlet by Arthur Conan Doyle. Hands up…I’m a Sherlock fan….I liked the films with Robert Downey Jr I am obsessed with the BBC adaptation with Benedict and Martin but…I’d never read the books!! So when I joined the library I thought….why not. I really didn’t like the writing style at all. I will not be continuing the series I just couldn’t get into the style of writing I found there were FAR too many ‘big’ words like I had to ask Google what a word meant in every sentence at least and I respect that these are ‘classic’ books reflective of their respective time period I just didn’t enjoy reading it. 1/5

The running girl by Simon mason. Again another author I hadn’t heard of and I picked this from the library purely from the front cover 🙂 I am so glad i did because wow this book was SO Good. It’s a YA novel and I read it in a day because it was just too addictive I kept putting it down trying to get on with other things but I just had to keep reading!! It follows a boy whose got the highest IQ ever recorded in his school but he constantly bunks off and doesn’t get good grades he is bored and is fed up of getting high in the park with his mates he is waiting for something fun to happen….that night his ex girlfriend is pulled out of the lake dead she’s been murdered he then gets involved trying to solve the case he’s like Sherlock in his thinking and it just kept me gripped! Definitely if you haven’t read this already DO!! 5/5

And lastly I read Apple Tree Yard by Louise Doughty again another new author for me I picked this up in the library because the name rang a bell …..I realised when I got home that there had been a TV adaptation made that I’d wanted to watch and didn’t get round to and now I’m sad because I want to watch it!!! This book was great I read it over three days because it was quite hard going it’s not a sunshine happy rainbows book and I enjoy crime/thriller/suspense novels and I’ve read alot of them but an event occurs in this that really was quite shocking to read because it happens at a point in the book where you’ve got to know the main character you identify with her and then she is sexually attacked. The books was beautifully written which seems a weird sentence to use after that but it was handled very well and I have subsequently taken out 2 more of Louise doughtys books because I really rate her as an author so I would recommend this story yes because it’s very good just be warned if it’s not something you think you could read about. 4/5 

Magical 01.09.17 🏰🌌

You all should know by now that I’m a Harry Potter fanatic! So it’s September 1st which means back to Hogwarts so I had to dress up like a Hogwarts student for the day right?! See you all in the great hall for the sorting ceremony x 

Ravenclaw pride 💙

Top 5 summer outfits ☀☀

People, it’s the last day of august and that for me always signals the end of summer *sigh* no I couldn’t tell you why I think it’s because from September I go into my hibernation autumn/winter mode!!

Anyways I digress, I thought that I’d show you my most worn outfits of the summer I was actually really confident with my body this summer I got my legs out loads and purchased….4 pairs of shorts!!! I never wear shorts!!! But this summer that’s pretty much all I’ve worn!!

I’ve also done things a bit differently I decided to pick the ‘outtake’ photos the ones where my hairs not quite falling right or I’m pulling a weird pose or the clothes are bunched in weird places because Ive been reflecting on social media and the image people put across and honestly it’s helped my headspace alot to rember that people only put the snapshots they want you to see,life is so heavily edited these days you need to take a step back,breathe and re-evaluate what’s important to you and look after your mental health aswell as your physical health something I had been neglecting for a while, so yes here are my unedited unscripted pictures 🙂

Outfit 1

These trousers! I love these and can’t wait to style them for autumn and winter too 🙂 I paired hem with a simple t-shirt either black white or grey to compliment the colours in the trousers then wore my converse or white canvas trainers and added my denim jacket on colder days 🙂

Outfit two

First pair of short these black ones from Tesco are so comfy!! I will again be wearing these in autumn and winter with tights 🙂 I’ve paired them alot with this cute yellow white&grey highneck top that I brought in a chairty shop, because of the colours in the top I’ve been able to wear my white trainers, white sandals and gold sandals to switch up the look.

Outfit three

Feeling like I’m in top gun!! These shorts were a real charity shop bargain they fit beautifully and they go with so many colours!! My favourite to wear has been this dark green shirt I brought a few years ago in a charity shop. To dress the look up I added my nude wedge sandals from primark but dressed the look down with trainers or flip flops.

Outfit four

These green shirts are from boohoo and they are the shortest shorts I own they are so cute the paperback waist detail is just super nice and flatters your figure, I’ve paired them alot with this white shirt I brought in a charity shop I then added a splash of colour to this outfit with my leopard print wedge sandals

Outfit five

This dress is just a really fun dress to throw on when you want to look like you made an effort! It’s so comfy it flows really nice so it’s good for bloated days and the print does all the talking!! Again I’ve been pairing it with my trusty denim jacket for colder days and added my faithful ASOS sandles to complete this look.

Xx

Charity Haul 🛍

I went shopping. Again. I brought alot of things!! So let’s see what I got shall we?!? There’s also at the end a few recent purchases that I haven’t shown you 🙂

Age UK 

Horn necklace 99p owl ring 49p

Jumper £3.49 this was in the men’s section and is originally from next

Pin badges: green starbug is from eBay £2 Dobby&Luna are from the studio tour £6each Alice is from Disneyland Paris £5 and the bird and cat were from age UK for 49p each

BHF

British heart Foundation had a sale on and I found this really cute print t-shirt for 99p originally 1.99

Cancer Research

Olive green box fit top £2 originally topshop black lace corset style camisole £1 and black white and grey check skirt £2 

Barnardos store

They had a sale rail in the store so of course I went straight for that!! Brown stripe t-shirt 99p was 2.49 pale blue Victorian style shirt 99p was 3.99 maroon cardigan 99p was 2.99 stripe shirt dress 99p was 3.49

Barnardos outlet

The outlet store had some big bins filled with shoes clothes and bags so I did some digging and found these beauties! Green leopard print velvet top 1.49 white owl t-shirt (his face cracks me up) 99p black high neck lace top 99p brown boots 99p maroon dress 99p

Books 

I found Catlin Moran how to be a woman in scope for £1.25 and thirteen reasons why in the salvation army for 50p 🙂

I brought some slippers a t-shirt plimsolls and a short for Darren in primark so in total today’s spend was…….. £34.60!!!

Sue Ryder at eye

On Wednesday after my hair appointment we went to eye and I brought these black cut out boots for £5 this black dog print knot front shirt for £3 and this green shirt for £3 

Tesco

Orange black and white stripe trousers £8 and black shorts £10

Which items your favourite??











The dreams that you wish do come true 🌌

So you may or may not know that on the 26th July my husband took me to Disneyland Paris 🙂 he booked it as a surprise as I have never visited Disneyland and it’s the 25th anniversary of the park opening this year so it seemed fitting to go 🙂 I thought I’d share some snapshots with you guys today and tell you what we got up to 🙂 so I hope you enjoy this journey x

Wednesday 26th July

We got the 9:07train to London then went over to st pancreas station where we checked in and waited to board the Eurostar 🙂 this photo is us on the Eurostar ready to start our journey to France!! The journey was super quick and the Eurostar is so nice the facilities are great and it was a super smooth journey 🙂 we stopped at Lille and headed to Lille Europe train station to catch our connecting train…when we got to the station however there were police and army everywhere yelling in French to get back from the area we asked someone what was going on and apparently there was a suspect package in the station that they suspected was bomb! Thankfully it was all dealt with and the station was reopened 10minites before our train was due to depart!! This was my first time on a double decker train so Darren booked us first class tickets on the upper deck it was so much fun!!! We arrived in Disneyland train station at 4:30 and headed into Disney village where we got a McDonald’s then headed to the bus station to catch the shuttle bus to our hotel 🙂 the hotel was super nice and only a 10minute journey to Disneyland we had a swim in the pool and a drink at the bar then headed to bed to rest up for our first day at Disney!!! Xx

Thursday 27th July

Top gifted from mum&dad shorts charity shop shoes vans headband primark

We had breakfast at the hotel then caught the 11am bus to Disneyland when we arrived we collected our tickets and headed into the main park…I was stunned into silence seeing the Disney palace and just the shere size and all the sights and smells I had no words!! We walked around alot seeing where everything was and exploring fun little places such as Aladdin’s cave of wonders and Alice’s curious labyrinth which made me a very happy girl! The first ‘ride’ we went on was it’s a small world because have you really been to Disney if you didn’t go on it’s a small world? I really enjoyed it! Then we went on pirates of the carabean which had only opened up on the Monday it was SUCH an amazing ride!! We then watched the parade which was fascinating and headed for some food. We decided to go back to the hotel for a shower and a cup of tea then headed back to the park for 10pm to watch the fireworks display and….I cried ! It was just so magical and being there in that moment with my husband who had planned the suprise trip just made me feel incredibly thankful for all that I’ve got and for being there in that moment!! We got back to the hotel at 12:15!!! Zzzzzzz

Friday 28th July

Top primark shorts charity shop

Today we went to the Disney studios park which was so fascinating it was more behind the scenes bits but still had loads of rides 🙂 we did the tram tour which goes behind the scenes and shows you special effects it was so much fun!!! Then we went on the Armageddon experience it was awesome and so clever I really enjoyed it!! Then we decided hey let’s go on crush’s coaster it’s a kids ride sure but it sounds fun……..well my god it was the fastest scariest roller coaster I’ve ever been on!! (I am a wimp!!) But it was so much fun my legs were like jelly afterwards!!! We then went to watch the stunt show and just WOW the stunts were amazing I really enjoyed this!!! 

Saturday 30th July 

Our last day 😦 today we travelled home so only had a few hours we decided to go back to Disney studios for Darren to ride the aerosmith roller coaster he really enjoyed it!! Then we got annual passes so we can go back as there was SO much we didn’t do!! Then we went on haunted mansion which was a super cute little ride which was really meant for kids but we wanted to do it! Then we went shopping and headed to the train station..

Summed up. Magic. Pure magic I loved it ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Orange dream ☀💛🌻🍊

My loves. This skirt. This skirt is just beautiful so what did I do? I got myself dolled up purely to show it off ….I am that extra 😂 this skirt I found in a charity shop for I think £3.95 it’s a river island skirt and the colours and print are just gorgeous!! Xx

Bralet £5 primark skirt £3.95 charity shop pleater jacket charity shop shoes charity shop