No. 🚫

Two letters, one little word. Yet do I use it as often as I should….. ironically no, no I don’t. People tell you to say yes more, and whilst I agree that yes can lead to some amazing adventures and opportunities you also need to learn to say no more. I feel we see it as a selfish word a word that couldn’t possibly lead to adventure and opportunities but honestly it’s the word we need to learn above all else. It requires no explanation stop apologising for saying no! These past few weeks I’ve said nothing but yes, I’ve worked longer hours, I’ve gone above and beyond my role,I’ve used my free time to help out others, I’ve used the remaining free time socialsing and although I’ve loved it I am now currently on my 3rd day of being ill because I’m so run down all because I haven’t said no. You need time to relax and recharge, you need time to yourself, you need those lazy weekends you need to learn to say no! So people enjoy life, love live laugh dance create opportunities explore travel try new things……..but say no once in a while too xx

June Goals 🌟

So before we know it June will be upon us…the 6th month half way through the year!! So looking at how I’ve spent the first half of the year I am relatively happy lots happened I’ll admit!! There are a few changes I want to make and document for you guys and for myself so here are my June goals!

🌟Walk 10k steps a day-easy enough u have a fitbit that tracks my steps and you should walk atleast 10thousand steps a day….I however rarely reach this but everyday in june I want to walk 10thousand steps!!! 

🌟Social media ban-other than Instagram once a week and wordpress I am logging off of social media because it’s still ruling my life.

🌟No biscuits-theres one day exception and that is June 2nd very specific I know but I will be going to York…and the hotel always has biscuits on the tea tray and there’s no way I can stay inahotel room and NOT eat the biscuits other than that no biscuits they are my weakness and I need to loose weight and tone up!

🌟No mirrors. Again when I go to York the hotel room mirrors are slightly harder to avoid however at home I am going to try and not look in the mirror for a whole month. I’ve always battled with my self confidence I am so over critical and analyse my hair my skin my spots my wobbly bits so I’m hoping that by avoiding mirrors it gives me a different mindset about what I actually see in the mirror and gives me a healthier relationship with myself xx

My life story….in a shoe 👟

Sixteen years old, shy, unconfident but happy. Alternative is the style pigeon hole my peers have labelled me or as you may know it…”goth” skinny black or grey jeans black h&m hoody and my black Dr Martens boots. They were my first love but that’s for another day. I needed some more convinient shoes (anyone whose worn Dr martens knows the struggle!) So one day shopping for new shoes I saw them, there they were in an array of colours and styles low top high top knee high…..they were perfect. I went inside the shop and parted with my money walking out of the shop with the thin black box that housed my new love….converse!!

My old pair did well, they walked on Cornish sands,ran through fields,took many seaside trips,danced through performing arts exams,walked the school corridors, they were worn with jeans,dungarees, skirts,dresses,tights,frilly socks,bare sandy feet. They were my trusty gorgeous babes and they served me well for 10 long years…..sadly they have passed on to shoe heaven 😥 but don’t be discouraged friends no no, converse.com came to the rescue!! This is not a sponsored post…boy I wish it was! This is my genuine opinion and I’ve parted with my own cash!! I decided to treat myself to a new pair (I’ve got a pay rise and decided to treat myself) I wanted another trusty pair of original black converse, well if you signed up to their email you got sent a 25%off code!! So yay! I got a new pair sent and delivered for £33!! Here they are the loves of my life…..now and forever a converse girl (I do love me some vans though!!)

Uppy date 

Hello!!

So i took a little time out from social media and my blog because my headspace wasn’t a pleasant place to be if I’m honest. 

BUT i feel refreshed my priorities and goals are in place and I’m ready to come back!!! 

I will be blogging twice a week not sure what days i wont set certain days it’ll just be as and when i have content some weeks it’ll be more than twice some it might be once and occasionally it’ll be none and that’s ok 🙂

Also…..I’m going to start vlogging again, i deleted the 2 blogs I’d done because i felt i wasn’t myself and felt the content wasn’t what i wanted my blogs to be, i have some very very VERY exciting adventures coming up in the next few months that are much more worthy of vlogging so that is my plan moving forward 🙂

Also last thing, if anybody wants to collaborate on a post with me then please get in contact I’d love to start featuring more of you guys on my blog so let’s do this!!

Hope everyone’s well lots of love light and sparkles love Natalie xxx

What have I learnt?

Today is my 29th birthday. I have exactly one year until I turn 30! So what have I learnt, experienced,achieved in my20’s?? Let’s find out shall we? 

So my 20’s sure were an experience! I was I’ll admit a bit of a twat from 20-25 me and Darren argued alot split up got back together split up got back together. I lied alot, I wasn’t honest to myself or my friends, I broke my own heart, I broke other people’s hearts, I said alot of stuff that I regret,I have lost alot of people some through their own doing and some I’m ashamed to say from mine,I was niave I was young I was foolish,I thought I could have the whole world without consequences but I was wrong!!! I truly will never be able to escape some of the mistakes I made but I hope that I’ve been forgiven for them atleast.

 Then at 25 me&darren had a huge talk got it all out in the open and decided that this was it make or break no more messing about and wasting time,he proposed to me and we started house hunting and moved into our own house 🙂 At 26 I got married it was the best day of my life 🙂 At 28 we had to face a difficult conversation….We’d been trying for a baby for a few years  with no success so we went through our first infertility tests….They came back fine and we were told to go back in 6 months but that it would probably not be necessary….It’s been 12 and again nothings happened. I’ve had to deal with my illness taking a HUGE downward turn I mean it’s really kicked my ass these past few years,darren has also openly admitted through his social media that he’s suffered with anxiety for the past year which takes its toll on him,me and our relationship it’s been tough I won’t lie we’ve had some very very dark days between us, but we are a team and I love him unconditionally. We adopted a cat,brought a new car,brought a new bed,decorated our house lots of little commitment pieces that really cement your relationship(even though we did those things as a married couple)

I learnt to be reasonably comfortable and confident with myself I still have days where I look and feel like shit but hey everyone does right? I’ve learnt to care less about what people think. My past self was a knob, she cared about people’s opinions and followed some truly horrific advice she let herself be swayed and manipulated she took others very poor advice and acted upon other people’s beliefs and opinions instead of her own but no more! I stand my ground speak up and don’t let people’s opinions of me affect my daily life! 

I started up my blog which has given me a massive confidence boost!! Ive learnt to slow down and take my illness seriously,I can’t do everything that I wish I could,I know that now and I know that the people who really matter stick around when I flake on plans or cancel last minute because they understand me they understand it’s something that’s part of me that can’t be helped! I’ve learnt to live more in the moment switch off and be present, I’ve started to look after myself more, become more independent and strong!!

So I’ve achieved alot, I’ve learnt alot of lessons!! I’ve had ups and downs and now I’m entering my last year of these glorious 20s!! I keep changing my mind about how I feel about turning 30 but looking back and seeing how much I’ve changed and how much I’ve achieved and learnt I am for now excited to enter into my 30’s!!! 

Fom top left ages 20-28 🙂

And me today at 29!!


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Life with a chronic illness:An open letter

Hello loves,

Today’s post is part rant and part informative (I hope)

A little backstory…..For context…

When I was 19 I started to feel unwell, I was constantly sick, felt tired all the time and picked up every bug going round, it took the doctors 8months to finally find out what was wrong with me, I had an underactive thyroid, thankfully it’s treatable with a daily tablet but it will never get better, it’s a life long illness. For a while the tablets seemed to lessen my symptoms, then I got glandular fever, which caused my immune system to shut down I was bed bound for nearly 3 months. I now have underactive thyroid, fatigue and autoimmune deficiency, I am in pain daily, I’m tired I get ill at the drop of a hat I have to be careful what I eat as thyroid can lead to a form of IBS so certain foods cause me to be sick! I have no anti bodies so even a cold can leave me bed bound as my body doesn’t know how to fight off the infection I’m more susceptible to sinusitis and ear nose and throat infections it’s just bloody hard work somedays I won’t lie!

Back story complete here’s the rant part…

Today I feel rough. A worse day shall we call it I don’t remember feeling ‘well’ but I don’t complain (often) I’m running on 4 1/2 hours sleep there’s so many bugs going round at work that I’m frightened I’ll catch I’ve got a huge headache and just feel poop….I was meant to go out today but cancelled I was also meant to go out last night but had to cancel now thankfully my friends and family are understanding of my situation and know that I am regrettably flaky!! However today I told my husband I wasn’t going out and he responds with ‘but you have to’ yes even my husband whose been with me for 10years can sometimes forget what it’s like!! So I’m here to say that regardless of whether you have an illness you don’t HAVE to do anything. I said this to him with a scowl on my face because I was annoyed! I didn’t have to go out it would’ve been nice to go out but I didn’t have to what I wanted to do was rest because this week is going to be one hectic week and I already know that by Sunday my body will be ready to give up!! I’m not articulating my thoughts well at all I’m too tired I just wanted to get the message across that all you ever have to do….Is what you darn well want to, and today I wanted to lounge around in my PJs and have a ‘sick’ day! That’s ok, you should never apologise or feel obligated to be anything other than yourself! It’s not selfish or rude or unsociable to focus on yourself once in a while so just remember that my loves

Rant over! Xx

Blogmas Day 9 How to deal with holiday stress 

Stress isn’t good, this time of year although fun can be overwhelming, so many plans so much to do and prepare for so little time!!! Here’s how I deal with stress especially at this time of year….

☯Download the Calm app free on android it’s a lovely little app that gives you free downloadable meditations ranging from 3 minutes upwards, they play calming music, have breathing exercises and positive mantras for you to follow its really helped me out these past few months.

☮Have a relaxing bath or shower use a bath bomb, luxury bubble bath, shower gels that have lavender or chamomile in to relax and soothe your aches and pains.

☯Face and hair mask again a little pamper to relax and rejuvenate.

☮Paint your nails. Concentrating on painting your nails takes your mind of the stress as your concentrating your mind on something else!

☯Get creative- colour in a picture,make some play-dough, doodle,make up a poem anything to get your creativity flowing,again it takes your mind off of the stress.

☮Light a candle. Personally I love Yankee candles when I’m stressed they let off the right amount of aroma…if that makes sense like they aren’t an over powering smell they are heaven!

☯Hot chocolate and a mince pie (or equivalent) A nice hot drink and a festive treat work wonders trust me!!

☮Create a happy playlist. Stick this on when your feeling stressed and sad and have a dance around your room!!

There’s my ideas…if you have any different ideas please feel free to share them below 🙂 x

Hair cut 💇💇

Hello lovelies,
So if you’ve followed my blog for a while you will know that my hair is my pride and joy it is my ultimate accessory and I love it!!!! So yesterday I decided not only to get it cut…. but to trust a new hairdresser!!!! Marco is my husband’s hairdresser and friend so I thought ok I’ll give it a go! Now I haven’t had any great length taken off my hair in 2 years as I started to grow it before me and Darren got married so that it was a nice length for our wedding day and from there I just kept growing it only having the dead ends tidied and cut off in subsequent hair dressing appointments so yesterday I thought as its summer I wanted a change so here’s the before and after….x

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Before

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After!!!! Quite a considerable amount off!!! Xx

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Goes even shorter when it’s curly!!!! Xx

Loving You ❤

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Sometimes I have down days,sometimes I think omg look at that huge spot,omg my hair is so frizzy,omg my make up isn’t going right,omg my bum looks huge. Sometimes I am just plain mean about myself!! It’s been a long and I mean LONG road to self appreciation and I’m happy to say the down days are few and far between I mean is anyone 100%happy about themselves 100% of the time? If they are I need to know how?!?!?! This hey you post is so beautiful and honestly you all need to read it and take it to heart trust me your all beautiful❤ I chose 5 photos that I look at and think damn girl you look fine!! The message today is just be happy life is too short and your gorgeous and I love you ❤ xx

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#fiercebitch 🐯