A weekend in York 

Hello lovelies.

This weekend to celebrate my birthday&our ten year anniversary the hubby booked a weekend away to York 🙂

This crossed off one of my places to visit from my 30before30 (here’s the blog post incase you missed it https://nataliegordon13.wordpress.com/2016/10/30/late-night-planning-30before30-list/ )

It was such a gorgeous place!! We saw the cathedral, walked round York castle museum (our hotel was directly opposite the castle) we stayed at the Hilton (V posh!!) Brought the most AMAZING fudge!! Had an amazing meal (I was SO stuffed afterwards) then on the Sunday we spent 4&1/2 hours at the train museum it was one of the Best places I have been!! It was truly fascinating there was so much to see and do it was amazing!! Then on our way home we travelled first class (again V posh) the first and probably last time I’ll ever get to travel first class on a train!! Here’s a few pictures from the weekend 🙂 



First charity shop haul of 2017


Yesterday me and my mum went shopping and boy did we shop!!! I definitely made a dent in my Christmas &Birthday money!!!

Here’s what I brought 

So we went to the Sue Ryder £1 store near my house and I picked up this long black new look cardigan, a green cardigan and a cream roll neck sweater.

From top left. Green coat £5.29 barnardos, catch 22 25p sue Ryder, The ocean at the end of the lane £1 sue Ryder, white top £2.50 primark, hair brush £1.50 primark, knee high socks £2.50 primark, earrings £0.50 primark, Grey&Yellow dress age concern £5.99 (still had the tags on its from m&co and should have been £55!!) Black velvet peplum new look top £1 cancer research, purple&green pleated check skirt £3 sue Ryder vintage, burnt orange and red peplum top £2 sue ryder.

Salvation army blue bomber jacket with embroidered bird print £6

Black&white gingham dress with netted petticoat 99p, leapord print clock house shirt 99p and blue daisy print skirt 99p from barnardos outlet.

That’s it all my shopping goodies!!! Xxx

What have I learnt?

Today is my 29th birthday. I have exactly one year until I turn 30! So what have I learnt, experienced,achieved in my20’s?? Let’s find out shall we? 

So my 20’s sure were an experience! I was I’ll admit a bit of a twat from 20-25 me and Darren argued alot split up got back together split up got back together. I lied alot, I wasn’t honest to myself or my friends, I broke my own heart, I broke other people’s hearts, I said alot of stuff that I regret,I have lost alot of people some through their own doing and some I’m ashamed to say from mine,I was niave I was young I was foolish,I thought I could have the whole world without consequences but I was wrong!!! I truly will never be able to escape some of the mistakes I made but I hope that I’ve been forgiven for them atleast.

 Then at 25 me&darren had a huge talk got it all out in the open and decided that this was it make or break no more messing about and wasting time,he proposed to me and we started house hunting and moved into our own house 🙂 At 26 I got married it was the best day of my life 🙂 At 28 we had to face a difficult conversation….We’d been trying for a baby for a few years  with no success so we went through our first infertility tests….They came back fine and we were told to go back in 6 months but that it would probably not be necessary….It’s been 12 and again nothings happened. I’ve had to deal with my illness taking a HUGE downward turn I mean it’s really kicked my ass these past few years,darren has also openly admitted through his social media that he’s suffered with anxiety for the past year which takes its toll on him,me and our relationship it’s been tough I won’t lie we’ve had some very very dark days between us, but we are a team and I love him unconditionally. We adopted a cat,brought a new car,brought a new bed,decorated our house lots of little commitment pieces that really cement your relationship(even though we did those things as a married couple)

I learnt to be reasonably comfortable and confident with myself I still have days where I look and feel like shit but hey everyone does right? I’ve learnt to care less about what people think. My past self was a knob, she cared about people’s opinions and followed some truly horrific advice she let herself be swayed and manipulated she took others very poor advice and acted upon other people’s beliefs and opinions instead of her own but no more! I stand my ground speak up and don’t let people’s opinions of me affect my daily life! 

I started up my blog which has given me a massive confidence boost!! Ive learnt to slow down and take my illness seriously,I can’t do everything that I wish I could,I know that now and I know that the people who really matter stick around when I flake on plans or cancel last minute because they understand me they understand it’s something that’s part of me that can’t be helped! I’ve learnt to live more in the moment switch off and be present, I’ve started to look after myself more, become more independent and strong!!

So I’ve achieved alot, I’ve learnt alot of lessons!! I’ve had ups and downs and now I’m entering my last year of these glorious 20s!! I keep changing my mind about how I feel about turning 30 but looking back and seeing how much I’ve changed and how much I’ve achieved and learnt I am for now excited to enter into my 30’s!!! 

Fom top left ages 20-28 🙂

And me today at 29!!


Life with a chronic illness:An open letter

Hello loves,

Today’s post is part rant and part informative (I hope)

A little backstory…..For context…

When I was 19 I started to feel unwell, I was constantly sick, felt tired all the time and picked up every bug going round, it took the doctors 8months to finally find out what was wrong with me, I had an underactive thyroid, thankfully it’s treatable with a daily tablet but it will never get better, it’s a life long illness. For a while the tablets seemed to lessen my symptoms, then I got glandular fever, which caused my immune system to shut down I was bed bound for nearly 3 months. I now have underactive thyroid, fatigue and autoimmune deficiency, I am in pain daily, I’m tired I get ill at the drop of a hat I have to be careful what I eat as thyroid can lead to a form of IBS so certain foods cause me to be sick! I have no anti bodies so even a cold can leave me bed bound as my body doesn’t know how to fight off the infection I’m more susceptible to sinusitis and ear nose and throat infections it’s just bloody hard work somedays I won’t lie!

Back story complete here’s the rant part…

Today I feel rough. A worse day shall we call it I don’t remember feeling ‘well’ but I don’t complain (often) I’m running on 4 1/2 hours sleep there’s so many bugs going round at work that I’m frightened I’ll catch I’ve got a huge headache and just feel poop….I was meant to go out today but cancelled I was also meant to go out last night but had to cancel now thankfully my friends and family are understanding of my situation and know that I am regrettably flaky!! However today I told my husband I wasn’t going out and he responds with ‘but you have to’ yes even my husband whose been with me for 10years can sometimes forget what it’s like!! So I’m here to say that regardless of whether you have an illness you don’t HAVE to do anything. I said this to him with a scowl on my face because I was annoyed! I didn’t have to go out it would’ve been nice to go out but I didn’t have to what I wanted to do was rest because this week is going to be one hectic week and I already know that by Sunday my body will be ready to give up!! I’m not articulating my thoughts well at all I’m too tired I just wanted to get the message across that all you ever have to do….Is what you darn well want to, and today I wanted to lounge around in my PJs and have a ‘sick’ day! That’s ok, you should never apologise or feel obligated to be anything other than yourself! It’s not selfish or rude or unsociable to focus on yourself once in a while so just remember that my loves

Rant over! Xx

Hello 2017!!

Hello my loves I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and a Fabulous New year 🙂

So a few things…..

1 I’ve created an Instagram account for my blog, I think I’d like to keep my personal Instagram account for you know food pictures and selfies haha!! So if you could go and give that a follow I would appreciate it alot as I’ll be linking my blog to the account 🙂

2 I have set a few goals this year- Exercise more, Drink more water, Take more photos,Live in the moment,Take a day away from technology,Read more!

3 I’m so excited for the content I’m preparing for my blog this year…Trust me guys this year I’m going to be more present on my blog!!!

4 I have spent the day doing something everyone should do especially at this time of year, I deleted a tonne of people from Facebook &Instagram that either I didn’t want to see, who ignored me in person ( why do people do that friend you on social media but ignore you irl?) Or that I just couldn’t be bothered with their drama any more!! I also went through my emails and unsubscribed to so many annoying mailing lists that I had been part of!!

So that’s it my quick update!!! Hope your all well 🙂

This is my Instagram account give it a follow 😀 xx